shadowheartless

Hey, hello, hi. My god how do I anything anymore with this new layout?? What the heck did I write last year? Oh yeah, mental health. Still working on that. Hard to say whether it's improved but the very least I seem to be getting better at managing it overall. Don't really wanna go into too much detail but I'm seeing a therapist now and reading up a shitton of self-help stuff. We'll see how that goes this year. Art-wise I said I wanted to do more fun stuff. Sadly I haven't really been able to do a whole lot of drawing at all. The last full piece I've done as of writing this is that Komory Bat doodle. I say this all the time and I'll keep saying this, but really hoping I'll be able to do more drawing in the future. Just, right now I'm focusing really hard on my mental and physical health. Not just band-aid fixes to get me through the day. Like really actually getting to the root of what's wrong with me. Also planning future life stuffs like car, house, etc... y'know adulting like an

This year I decided to take a longer vacation than usual for Christmas break. It was meant for my Japan trip but that sorta fell through and I'll be trying again in April. I realized that my mental problems aren't 100% because of work. Even though the first few days were super relaxing, as the days went by my mind and body fell back into some really bad habits of sleeping at absurd hours and skipping meals. Sucks that once I fall in, it takes weeks to fix. Though I've focused on my mental health more than ever in 2018, all I felt I really did was discover just how broken I am. That probably is a bigger step than I think it is, but to me it m

Yearly journal update! Does anyone even read these? I've been so very dead here on DA but if for whatever weird reason you want to still see my art, some of it's over here: https://twitter.com/Fukurosuzaku/moments How's life been? Well, my entire already small team left for better jobs, so I'm basically solo now. The very least my team lead is understanding enough that our workplace is just fucking stupid in that they're not hiring any replacements, so nobody expects me to do 4x more work. More accurately, "working on it". But given where I work, I'm not gonna see any change in the next year. That's cool. I'm also still a temp. Also "working